Biyernes, Agosto 11, 2023

I will be 53 on August 12

 



Its 9:10 pm, Friday, Aug 11 2023. In about 3 hours, It will be my birthday. Im not a party person, and Im happy na Sabado ang birthday ko. Im an introvert and loner, I thrive on being alone, just working , or just browsing in the internet.  I hate small talk.

Im just feeling down these days. Earlier, I approved  the leave of a staff going to Japan for a vacay. Should I be jealous ? Nah, I had a trip to HK, and  the memory left of that trip was that, I spent too much money on it and lots and lots of walking. No regrets though, I had great pictures.

You know why Im sad? maybe Im just tired. Maybe its about getting old. Maybe Im sick? the heat? Pre menopause symptoms? I feel fat and ugly. Anyways, its one of those times I need a positive outlook in life.


Seconds before i opened blogspot, I checked my email, and lo and behold, e submission just verified my submission for VAT which I sent last  July 2. Cheers! Thank you Lord. 

I have simple dream, that every start of the week, I secretly wish its Friday, so I can sleep longer on a Saturday. and I really hope weather is just a bit cooler. But since Birthday ko  Sabado, kelangan lumabas coz I feel pathetic just staying at house. 

Lord, I do have a wish. That I would find a staff as good and reliable as Lydia and Edelord. Lydia was a great loss to me. I just need someone reliable that can help me and has brains, if you know what I mean.

Anyway: may prayers

1. I pray for the health of my Mama, sana Lord, mawala na ang ubo niya. Phlemex do your thing. How can I travel? I cant leave my Mom here alone

2. I pray for my health. Lord, guide me on what to do

3. I pray for my family. Kevin and Nora, please stay healthy and  be well

4. I pray for my  secret lodi (Alden Richards) for  successful business ventures, more movies and collaberations and for achieving your dreams. Sana makayanan ko maging fan, coz medyo tamad ako. I just pray that you are protected  from bad elements, and that you make wise decisions, Protect him Lord.

5. Sana ganahan ako mag declutter. My room is such a mess full of junk and garbage. kaka lazada ko  yan.

Do I have a dream for myself? To be honest,  I just wanted a job. Yun ang dream ko dati. To have my own income. I dont have a house, no car.  Just a room in my parents house with so much clutter.  I didnt expect I would grow old with my sister. Good luck to me haha

Basta Lord, guide me please.  Take care of me. Im always scared on whats gonna happen. I dont want to take risks.  I hate socializing. I hate going out at night time.

 By the way old friends, thanks for reaching out to me, pasensya na I dont respond at times. The last time I socialized with the samgyupsal dinner, I had pains in my arms for weeks. I think its still there, reminding me. Dont do that again hehe.

random thoughts: should I just buy a pair of pants on sabado? hmmm

9:26 pm: Before I forget. HBD to me. 53.



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